Friday, July 01, 2005
I'm having a horrible time right now. It's hit me that I hae no plans this weekend. I"m going to spend my 4 days at home doing nothing. I try to think if there is anyone I can call and they're all busy. This makes me feel like a major LOSER. It brings back so many thoughts of doubt and lonliness. This usually gets better but it hasn't for a week. I have no life right now, nothing to look forward to. I could go out but what will people think, 'how sad, she can't find anyone to do something with.'