I need a friend to cry to. And I have noone.
I just finished The Second Summer of the Sisterhood and envy the relationship the girls have. They team up when one of the others is donw. I need something like that.
I need that friend I can call up anytime about anything that will either plot someone's death or give me the push I need.
I hate this feeling of worthlessness and helplessness.
I hate feeling sick and being overemotional.
I wish feelings would go away and I could survive as a zombie, at least then my heart wouldn't be broken.
I'm scared that I'll never find someone else, I'm not the most social person so how will I meet someone new now that I'm done with school?
I hate that I feel useless, that I mean nothing to anyone, like I exist in my own little world and everyone else ignores me and enjoys their life.
Most of all I hate that I can let one person ahve this effect on me. I'm the one that broke it off, I shouldn't be the one that's miserable.